I am not weak willed!

So often people look at fat people and think: ohhh! that person has such little will, can’t they just push themselves away for the table, eat a little less, exercise a little more. How could they possible do that to themselves? They must be lazy. There good for nothing, I wish I did have to look at them! WHAT’S WRONG WITH THEM?

Well I’m here to tell you that I Am Not a Weak Willed Person! I have gained and lost weight more time than you can count.

I’ve fasted for 3 months strait one time.

I’ve gotten up at 5 in the morning and exercised for 3 hours in the gym every day for 3 years.

I’ve lived without carbs, I’ve lived without sweets, I’ve lived with pills that make you sick, and I’ve lived with pills that make you shit.

Most often a fat person’s lives are centered around trying to lose weight, they join groups, buy special food, count calories, weigh portions, live by food groups, and portion control. And trust me everything works for a while, you lose some weight, and then the body adapts, it lowers your metabolism, you hit a plateau, or you just plane give up for a while, and the weight comes back on, twice as much this time, on and on, a vicious cycle of losing and gaining, losing and gaining, and all the time your self esteem starts to falter, and you reach out for the only comfort you know, Food! You eat so much that you dull the pain of your own insecurities.

But then, beaten and broken, with herculean strength, you pick you self up and start another diet, you start another exercise routine, and the cycle begins anew.

Does all that sound like someone who has no will?

I would like to see of the so called thin people do half the stuff that us fat people do and have done most of our lives.

I am not a weak willed person, I am stronger and have endured much more.

And I am proud of who I am, for I will not be defined by what I look like, or your perception of me, and even though I am a work in progress, do not pre-judge me, learn what I am capable of before you dismiss me, get to know my character and not my image, often you will be surprised with the man inside rather than the fat man you see on the outside.