Day Two

The first day of the fast went great, I only had 2 bought of hunger around 7:30pm, and when I woke up in the middle of the night around 3. At first I tried to tough it out, but figured out that if I just took a protein supplement it went away real fast, of course at night I just went back to sleep. So the first day was easy, actually I was anticipating a harder time, but was presently surprised. As I said it’s been awhile since I’ve done this.

I talked yesterday about being addicted to food, that it was my drug of chose to deaden my emotions. Today I take control of my life. There are many things that I have no control over, I have no control over the economy, I have no control over funding for the handicapped, I have no control over the world, politics, or gas prices, but I do have control over my body, my being, and my life. And in such, I thrust away the shackles of my addiction and stand defiant and shout I will not be controlled, for my will is strong and my determination is steadfast. I have no doubt that I will succeed.

I choose to be pro active with my weight problem, I choose to fight my addiction with food, I choose to exercise more, eat less, and live a healthier life. And I choose to take this one day at a time. I realize and understand that my goals will not be accomplished overnight, that this is a life long commitment toward a better me. That I will have to change the way I feel about myself, that I will have to change the way I see myself interacting with people. That I will have to change the way I deal with stress, difficulties and disappointment. And I must realize and understand that this change can only happen one step at a time. If I can only exercise for 5 minuets, then exercise for 5minuets, if I can get out of the house, than get out of the house, If I do what I can repetitively soon I will be able to do more, this is a basis for a foundation in which I can build. I’m not ready to run out to the gym and exercise for 5 hours, but I am ready to begin. Each step I take is a progression forward, slow and steady as the motto goes.

Day one is past, day two is forward, and day three is just around the bend. A progression onward toward a brighter horizon, each day a success, each hour a challenge,  each moment an adventure to be lived, loved, and remembered fondly, for I am better than I was yesterday and I will be even better tomorrow. Say a prayer if you think of me, encourage me if you can, walk with me for just a moment along this journey, and we will both be enriched by our company. May peace follow you this day and may a smile ever brighten you heart.

FM